!?! Frustration !?!

So I am still over Aunt Lydia's house with Dionne I don't want to go home things are just too much over there. Between Amanda running the house and my parents questioning my every thought and feeling about Melvin. It has become a little overwhelming. I want to focus on getting a job, that's it. Not wondering if when I wake up will something of mine be missing or what else is going to be said about Melvin. We are broken up and its been that way for a while, day by day it becomes more easier to cope with. We talk and its evident that we really care about each other, but the arguing is too much to handle, we argue about ways to stop arguing, we can't be together anymore and I'm just learning to except that. I met someone new, I kind of like him. He makes me laugh, something that I haven't done in a long time. And we have a lot of things in common. I like that a lot, but in some ways I feel guilty for liking him, should I? I don't know, that is what I am so frustrated about, I'm afraid to move on and I know I shouldn't be. He broke up with me, and he says he wants me to be happy. But he confuses me all the time. When I wanted him back, he didn't want me back, and then he wants me back but I'm kind of interested in someone else. I don't know what to do and I don't know what to say. I am really lost, and its not fair. I feel like he is still winning because I am miserable just trying to figure out what to do. He has control of everything, or at least he tries to. Like when he told me he wanted me back I was just like whatever OK I'll talk to you later because I'm talking to someone on-line. He calls back after a few hours and he's like what are you doing I'm like I'm still talking to my new friend and he's like get off the computer your not single no more. What the hell? I didn't say that, I said OK I'll talk to you later. He wants to control my life. The only reason he wanted me back is because he didn't think I would actually try to move on, and I did. He is so full of crap, but I love him. He is my first love and I can't help it. But I will try, because Lavonte (the new guy) managed to make me laugh all day, in just in 30 minutes Melvin broke me down into tears and ruined my day. I don't need a man like that.

"No man is worth crying over. And if you find one that is, he won't make you cry"